Satisfied, Kind of

I only have a week left of school until my month long break, which is fantastic.
Last week was awful, but I'm over it and everything. I'm in a much better mood now.
The weekends always help that though.
As for "kind of", I really don't want to be at Towson for a second year. I don't see why that is necessary, but at the same time next years plans are a lot better than the plans I currently have.
Plus spring semester should be a lot better because some more people will be here. Plus, I'm meeting more people even though it's happening slowly.

I just want my cooler classes and finals to be over.

Not soon enough

I just want to leave Towson and stop studying useless things that I don't even want to know.
I finally got my parents on board with cosmetology school:
Paul Mitchell: The Temple, you will not be here soon enough!

As soon as I get through the first few weeks of December, I think everything will be better.

Tomorrow, I have to wake up at 645 to fuckin register for classes. Is that necessary?!
No, seriously, Towson why do you suck so much?

Birthday

On the plus side I can buy my own cigarettes now.

Break was weird, and bad habits are causing immense amounts of frustration right now
I'm really just not that happy.

Wierd

I feel so far away from things, and it's only been 3 days.
I just don't want things to be different and sometimes I'm afraid they will be.
I just hope things go okay this weekend.

Being at home just throws everything off.

November 19

May prove to be one of the hardest days of my life. I don't know when I'll be sure though, but pretty much anything could go wrong today before 3:30 and it wouldn't measure up to me awaiting after said time.

It also may prove that I am a lucky mother fucker who is just paranoid.

we'll see,
I'm hoping for option 2

I hate

How whenever I have a stressful week, everything else seems to be weird too, so when i try to concentrate on studying my mind is elsewhere and I don't remember anything I just read.

fuck this week
for serious

I'm a horrible person...

So my mom is being overly obnoxious with this notion of visiting me, and I didn't know how to handle it. I called my Brother and he told me to just be honest and deal with it, and tell her to kinda like peace out. So the more I thought about it, the more pissed off i started to get because I feel like no matter what happens, my mom will always be like nagging, calling, trying to see me 24/7. I DON"T LIVE AT HOME ANYMORE, LADY!!! and now that i don't even live at home, I don't want to go home, because I know that the same rules from highschool will apply. It's stupid. I emailed my mom and, in the gentlest way possible, told her you came up last weekend, I'm going to WVU with you next weekend, you don't need to come up this weekend, MY GOODNESS. like just because i live 40 minutes away does not give you the right to smother me because you can't drive to West Viriginia on a whim. I have a life too thanks, I got shit to do and it doesn't include making the time to see you every fucking weekend.

And for that matter I will be 18 on my birthday, I'm going to Mikes show, and a party afterwards. Like obviously I want to party the second it turns 12. So i say hey mom thanksgiving I'll be with you, Friday and Saturday we can do my birthday and then I'll go to my birthday with my friends Saturday night and Sunday. That is so reasonable. But no... She has to pull some, I wanna see Mike play too, So your father and I will come to the show and then Sunday night take you guys out to dinner and celebrate. LIKE PLEASE DISTANCE YOURSELF, JUST A LITTLE FROM MY LIFE. I love her dearly, but I have an agenda that doesn't include my mother and she needs to understand that things are not the same as they were.

So if I'm right, why do I feel so bad?

Fun times

Good weekend. I have most of my philosophy paper done, thanks to the quiet and emptiness of Mike's house. And Sunday was just so nice out. However, I don't feel that good the day after.
Dan- that cranberry juice and spins game, no thanks. Next morning, is not that pleasant for me.

Two classes. Finish and edit paper, dinner, gym? Heroes